Relationship Issues

I Lost My Boyfriend To The Internet

A week ago, I realised my world had crashed around me. I was forced to face the fact that I had lost my boyfriend to the internet, and I’m still trying to sort it all out. We had a great relationship for more than two years, and we had talked about moving in together and starting a family. I wasn’t very worried at first when he began working late, but the truth was even more than I could imagine.

Missing an important date

My parents rarely come into the city, so it is a real treat to meet with them. My boyfriend and I had a long-arranged date with them last Thursday for dinner, and he called to tell me he would be working late and couldn’t make it. It was unusual, and I begged him to take a night off. He had been working late for more than a month, but this was beyond rude for him. I began to believe something was up, so I went by his office on my way to meet my parents, and his car wasn’t there.

Taking a vacation day

My parents left early the next day, and I decided to take a vacation day off from work to find out what was really going on. After having breakfast out with them, I took a bus over to his apartment and let myself in with the key he had given me last year. There wasn’t anything obvious, but then I logged on to his computer.

A whole new set of sites

My boyfriend doesn't use his computer much, so it was obvious something was up when I saw a new folder labelled fun links. Opening it, I felt my world turning upside down. They were for sites with videos, web cam performers and virtual reality rooms.  I thought he didn’t know enough about technology to even think about getting into virtual reality. I think he uses these adult webcams you can find online.  I saw a list of free adult webcams.  All of this was a revelation, and I knew I had to get my head around it to figure out why I had lost him.

Coping with the pain

I was stunned by what I saw, and the only conclusion I could come to was that he was more interested in finding partners online than being with me. It hurt badly, so I stopped calling him. We haven’t talked for an entire week, but I am beginning to see it is for the best. The pain is receding, and I now understand he wants more than he believes I can give him when it comes to intimacy.

I wish he had told me he wasn’t satisfied, but that is now part of our past. I was curious, and I joined a few of the sites that had males. I've decided it is time to explore my own sexuality with professionals and see where it takes me in life. I hope both of us find our own fulfilment, and I’m eager to get started with my own online adventures.